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May 04 Just a spark of light I know I have been pretty irregular in updating my blog. Forgive me for it but its a bit hectic with my post graduation and all. I'm back in Mumbai for 2 and a 1/2 months for my summer placements and will go back to Ahmedabad in last week of June. I was at my home cleaning up my shelfs and I got my hands on a poem which I had written a year back but had misplaced it. I'm just posting it here.. I'm so caged in this unbarred world, There's no sound, not even a word, No bars, No walls & still I'm locked, The words are quiet, the thoughts are blocked, There is no light, not even a spark, I'm totally lost in this world so dark, There;s dark within, there's dark without, No one to hear even if I shout, I shout, I yell, I hurt, I bruise, I try to overcome but I just lose, There's so much of noise within this quiet, Everything's black within this white, I cannot survive this deafening silence, I cannot overcome this invisible fence, Why only me? Why me out of all? As I begin to walk, why do I fall? Protect me, help me, find me, save me, Don't let this darkness come & enslave me, I have gone numb, I feel no pain, Why do they hurt me, what will they gain? Is this dark my blindness or just a sleep, It's hurt me and bruised me, really really deep, I'll give all my knowledge, my riches, my might, Just a spark of light, Just a spark of light... - Priyank Shah I hope to be much more regular on this blog... February 08 I'm back Your lips, your eyes, your soul Are like a work of art, The most creative thing of all Is your beautiful heart. If you were a painting, No colours could express The beauty deep inside you, A rainbow, nothing less. If you were a sculpture The clay could hardly make Your figure of an angel Without one mistake. If you were a euphony No choir could really sing All the beautiful music Your eyes could possibly bring. So here I am, an artist, With inspiration beyond belief But to capture such rare beauty, I'd have to be a thief............ May 02 The trick to winningNo one is beat till he quits, No one is through till he stops, No matter how hard Failure hits, No matter how often he drops, A fellow's not down till he lies In the dust and refuses to rise. Fate can slam him and bang him around, And batter his frame till he's sore, But she never can say that he's downed While he bobs up serenely for more. A fellow's not dead till he dies, Nor beat till no longer he tries. ~Edgar Guest April 14 Free...At LastMy exams are on so I am not posting anything new, just posting a poem of mine which I had posted long time back....I want comments from people who have not commented on this one... Free...At Last My life was nothing, But sheer enslavement, Even a free breath, Would be big achievement, Who was I a slave to? I myself don't know, I couldn’t find a way, Nor a place to go, I seemed to be free, I was tied by none. But yet I was a slave, To millions, not one, Now I’m chained, In this false city of relations, Everywhere I see, I just view new expectations, I try to break free, But all in vain, I have everything to lose, And nothing to gain, And then I’m bonded, In this world of materials, Where I’m the serf, And cravings are imperials, But then I’m even trapped, In my own edge of thought, I try to break free, But again I’m caught, I don't know where to run, I have no place to hide, No one cares for me, Nobody is by my side, Now everyone is sad, But I am in glee, Because six feet under, I feel I’m free… January 26 Let me DieSitting blankly, staring at sky, In my thoughts, I wonder why, Why do I need this purposeless run? Why is every work supposed to be done? So much of pain, so much of weaning, Does this lifeless life have a meaning? Worthless targets and useless goals, Living corpses with dying souls, No friend to embrace, no foes to fight, Nothing is wrong, nor is it right, No thoughts, no desires, no purpose, no will, No mind to think, no heart to feel, Every moment a scar, every moment a death, Fake smiles on face when eyes are wet, What is the use of this worthless survival? No hope is left, no chance of revival, I want to die just once, not again and again, Kill me for once, just a one time pain, Don't ask me the reason, don't ask me why, Just let me die, just let me die… -Priyank Shah By the way, Happy Independence Day, Jai Hind October 31 A Martyr's Last LetterCHALA GAYA JO MAIN TO AANSOO NA TUM BAHANA, ARTHI PE AKAR MERI SHRADDHA SUMAN CHADHANA, LAGTA HO SWACHCHH TUMKO LEKIN KAFAN HAI RAKTIM, AB DOOR JA RAHA HOON YATRA YEHI HAI ANTIM HAIN AB BHI PRAN MERE KARGIL KE SARD RAN MEIN JEEVIT HOON MAIN ABHI BHI , MATRI BHU KE HAR KAN MEIN, HAI RAN SE DOOR MERA CHHOTA SA EK BASERA PARIVAAR HAI VAHAN PAR JO TAKTA HAI MARG MERA, US PARIVAAR MEIN:- " EK MAA HAI MERI JISNE JANM MUJHKO DIYA HAI IS MATRI BHU KI KHATIR ARPAN MUJHE KIYA HAI EK BAAP HAI MERA JISKI AANKHON KA MAIN HU TARA KARTAVYA BODH DEKAR JISNE RAN MEIN MUJHE UTARA BEHNO SE AAJ MAINE RAKHI KA HAQ HAI CHHINA MERE BHAIYON KA GARV SE CHAUDA HUA HAI SINA KEHTE THE FAUJI MUJHKO SAB YAAR DOST MERE KAISE KATENGE TUJH BIN MERE SHAAM AUR SAVERE EK VO BHI HAI JISKE SAPNO MEIN MAIN HU ATA ARMAAN THA YE USKA KI USKI MAANG MAIN SAJATA UMMEDEIN SARI UNKI MAIN TODE JA RAHA HOON BAS YAADO KE SAHARE SAB CHHODE JA RAHA HOON GARV HAI MUJHE KINTU KI BALIDAAN MAIN HUA HOON AMRATVA MAINE PAYA BHALE NISHPRAN MAIN HUA HOON YEH DESH DHARM HAI MERA YEH DESH SWABHIMAAN HAI TIRANGA JISKA KAFAN BANE KYA AAM WO INSAAN HAI? TIRANGA JISKA KAFAN BANE KYA AAM WO INSAAN HAI ? October 11 Kam HaiKam Hai Aa bhi jaao ke Zindagi kam hai, Tum nahi ho to har khushi kam hai... Vaada karke bhi yeh kaun nahi aaya, Is sheher mein aaj roshni kam hai... jaane kya ho gaya hai mausam ko, dhoop zyada hai, chandni kam hai... Aaina dekhkar yeh khayal aaya, Tumse naa milne par taazgi kam hai... Jaane kyun fizao ne rukh badal diya, Aaj-kal unki dosti kam hai... Tumhare dar par hum intezaar mein hai, khuda ke ghar mein aaj bandagi kam hai... yaad rakhna mujhe "benaam" hi sahi, Pehchaan ke liye saari Zindagi kam hai... - Priyank "Benaam" Shah September 23 After a long time...I just thought to stop blogging cuz not many people responded to my posts, but then I realized, what the heck, I am doing this for myself, not for others to read. Also, even if some, few people read and acknowledge it, I guess my work is done. I was nto looking for praises or appreciations, just comments. Wanted to know where cud I improve, how was my work, do I need to change something, but then , I guess its fine.... So here it goes after a long time... They tell me I'm better off as one But they don't feel the pain Alone is dark Alone, my whole life has gone - Priyank Shah I would appreciate comments, but its fine if I dont get them... July 23 In search of identityWell,
I expected some comments on the last post, not for me, but for my friend, Neways, here's my next post...
IN SEARCH OF IDENTITY
Walking aimlessly, on this untrodden path,
Lost in the thoughtless world unknown, No friend, no foe, nowhere to go, Just wandering for identity of my own, For who am I, I myself dont know,
A friend, a son, and a lot more to all, I am a lot but still I'm not, I blindly respond to each and every call, Where do I go? whom do I tell?
where will I find? whom do I ask? For everyone seems as aimless as me, everyone enduring a worthless task, I have no identity, who am I?
For theydont even know what is my name, I've a lot of skill and even some talent, But without my identity, how do I get fame? I just have a request, or maybe a plea, There is nothing more than this I crave, When I die and rest in peace, engrave, 'in search of identity' on my grave... - Priyank Shah July 02 Joint EffortThis poem is written by me and my friend Neha. We just kept on collecting our thoughts and this poem was created. as this is her 1st effort and so, please give some special appreciation to her, if possible.
So, here it goes.
Life is a long journey, with roads untrodden,
where each one is a traveller, looking for a companion,
though he finds many, but none as pure as his soul,
so, he chooses to walk alone, alone to reach his goal,
but then he needs someone to push him towards his goal,
And the eternal search begins, to make his life whole,
And this is where his life begins to change,
suddenly known places, start looking strange,
where his eyes speak and heart cries,
he cannot find the perfect friend, however hard he tries,
His innocent soul doesn't know the practicality of life,
So it keeps on wandering, to find just pain and grief,
which makes him realise that he is ditched,
but every experience makes him enriched,
and this way he learn to live life, to travel the journey,
to find his way through nights, and even days sunny,
and this makes him sure, there is no end to pain,
there is no longer sun for him, only soggy rain,
and he loves this rain to hide his tears,
how long does he have to survive with this fears?
but then at the horizon, he saw a bright view,
as he went closer, he found that it was you,
all hurt, and bruised and tortured and wet,
he finally found you, the best he could get,
and then he knew, he was no more alone ever,
cuz he had now found, friend forever...
- Neha Shavdia & Priyank June 15 AainaThe Credit to this entry goes to "Pratima"...the khubsuratsapne girl. She gave this beautiful beginning to me 'aaine mein yeh chehra' n I just continued typing my feelings which poured immediately after reading the line. Within less than 10 minutes, this is what I wrote. Well...tell me how it is...
Aaina
aaine mein yeh chehra, aaj-kal kyun alag sa dikhta hai,
kyun apni hi shaksiyat se, mujhe ab darr sa lagta hai...
kitni hi kaatil sadiyon se, dil ki dharti mein thi pyaas,
pyar naa mila to aansu bhi, isko saawan sa lagta hai,
kyun apni hi shaksiyat se, mujhe ab darr sa lagta hai...
Pehle to chamak uthta tha, yeh aaina meri surat dekh,
Ab na jaane mera chehra dekh, kyun is se dard jhalakta hai,
kyun apni hi shaksiyat se, mujhe ab darr sa lagta hai...
Is kadar is zamaane mein, har dar pe dil ye toot gaya,
Aaine ko bhi chune se, ab to yeh mann darta hai,
kyun apni hi shaksiyat se, mujhe ab darr sa lagta hai...
Pehle haal-e-dil ki mere, kehta tha kahaani yeh aaina,
ab bhi to dil ka haal hi, yeh aaina chupke se kehta hai,
kyun apni hi shaksiyat se, mujhe ab darr sa lagta hai...
ek daur tha jab phoolon se, hum aaine ko sajaaya karte the,
Ab aaine mein humari tasveer ko, roz koi haar chadhta hai,
kyun apni hi shaksiyat se, mujhe ab darr sa lagta hai...
Jis aaine mein apni pehchaan, mein dhoondhta tha kabhi,
ab wohi aaina mujhko,'Benaam' pukaarta rehta hai,
kyun apni hi shaksiyat se, mujhe ab darr sa lagta hai...
- Priyank "Benaam" Shah naakaam kar diyanaakaam kar diya
Humne apna jeevan unke naam kar diya, Aur unki hi mohabbat ne hume nakaam kar diya...
Mehsoos hi kiya tha unka naam apne hotho par ke, Badnaami ka unhone humpe ilzaam kar diya, unki hi mohabat ne hume naakaam kar diya...
Humko unke aane se aagaaz nazar aaya, Aur unhone muuh pher ke anjaam kar diya, unki hi mohabbat ne hume naakaam kar diya...
Humko to unke dil mein koi jagah nahi mili, Unhone humare dard mein makaam kar diya, unki hi mohabbat ne hume naakaam kar diya...
Kabr se humare kucch mitthi hum hi le gaye, Unke hi aangan mein humne gulfaam kar diya, unki hi mohabbat ne hume naakaam kar diya...
charcha tha humara aashiquo ke shahar mein, woh mashoor ho gaye, hume 'Benaam' kar diya, unki hi mohabbat ne hume naakaam kar diya...
- Priyank 'Benaam' Shah May 30 Kya yahi pyar kehlata hai?I know its been a long time since I posted my last message. Well, lot of factors came into play. My comp was not working, then thee were guests at my place, one of my friends met an accident etc etc etc. Neways, I back now. So, here's my post.
KYA YAHI PYAR KEHLATA HAI?
Lehro ko to yeh pata hai,
ke kinare se milkar woh beh jaayegi,
Phir samundar mein pighalkar woh reh jaayegi,
Apne astitva ko daav par lagaakar,
kyun lehro ko kinara bhata hai?
Kya yahi pyar kehlata hai?
Parwana kyun shama ke,
chaaro aur mandarata hai?
usko shama mein aisa kya bhaa jaata hai?
Yeh jaankar ki saamne anth hai,
parwana shama ko gale lagaata hai,
Kya yahi pyar kehlata hai?
Mom sab kucch jaankar bhi,
baati ko apni dil mein basaati hai,
aur baati ke saath woh khud bhi pighal jaati hai,
koi nahi jaanta hai,
kya mom aur baati ka naata hai?
kya yahi pyar kehlata hai?
kyun baarish ki yeh boonde,
Dharti ko milne ki chah mein itraati hai,
Khud ko mita ke woh dharti ke dil mein bas jaati hai,
khud ko dharti ke hawaale dekar,
Saawan bhi kya pata hai?
kya yahi pyar kehlata hai?
Unki yaad ke bina ek saans bhi,
ab to hume Gunaah lagti hai,
Unke ghamo ko humari aanko mein panaah milti hai,
Unke ke bina jab zindagi ko,
Koi "Benaam" hi bataata hai,
kya yahi pyar kehlata hai?
- Priyank "Benaam" Shah
May 14 KyonKYON...
Kyon hum zindagi se, zindagi humse naraaz hoti hai?
Kyon khushiyon ke beech bhi aankhen udaas hoti hai?
Inki baaho mein to samundar leta hai angdaai,
Phir kyun kinaaro mein sadiyon ki pyaas hoti hai?
Juda hai humari raahein yeh hum bhi jaante hai,
Phir kyun har aahat tumhare aane ka ehsaas hoti hai?
Chaand sitare paana to hum bhi chahte hai,
Roshni kyun sirf unke hi aas-paas hoti hai?
Humko to yeh saara aalam jaanta tha kabhi,
Kyon aaine mein ab shaksiyat ki talaash hoti hai?
Yeh bahaare, yeh mehfil kyon chhod chale hai hum?
Kyon ab hume bas tanhaayi hi raas hoti hai?
In aankhon mein kisi ka intezaar rehta tha kabhi,
Kyon ab ashk ki chand boonde hi paas hoti hai?
Hum to chahkar bhi nahi mitaa sakte khud ko,
Tumhari dhadkano se judi kyun meri saans hoti hai?
Ab to saanson ne bhi unke aane ki umeed chhod di,
"Benaam" ko kyon ab bhi unke aane ki aas hoti hai?
- Priyank "Benaam" Shah May 08 Its all in your eyesThis is one of my older creations. Was out of station for some time. So nothing new. I hope you people dont mind. Your Comments are always welcome.
It’s all in your Eyes
As slow and mild the sun will rise, Along with time the mist will drift, The reds, the blues and the pinks in sky, You’re better than the sunset, more divine, Millions of colours make the sunset, Your eyes seem more colourful yet, You are truly special, truly blessed, Tenderly made and heavenly graced,
The sun goes deep within the sea, Like you have always been within me,
Your tender eyes make the sun rise, You make the lows, you make the highs,
There’s nothing called Nature, no one all-wise, You are the Goddess, its all in your Eyes…
-Priyank Shah April 14 Why??/Why
Without a reason, why do I smile? Why is life suddenly worthwhile? Why does a song hum in my thoughts? Why am I suddenly out of all knots?
Why do I miss you when you are there? Why do I remember, why do I care? We both have nothing to talk at all Yet why do we wait for each other’s call?
Why does the moon now seem so bright? Why do dreams now find me at night? Why am I suddenly free of all pain? Why does my heart dance again & again?
Why does everyone seem to be in bliss? Why do I suddenly feel like this? Why am I now on Cloud number nine? Why does everything seem to be fine?
Why am I smiling against all odd? Why does it seem like I am GOD? Why do words float in my mind? Why don't I want to now look behind?
I smell victory in every breath I take, Why do all failures now seem to be fake? Why does life gift me with glory? Why do I feel I finally have a story?
Why don't you move away from my sight? Why do I think of you even when I write? Why did suddenly, my whole life change? Why did this happen, isn’t it strange?
Why don’t I care about what others think? Why do I stare at you without a blink? Why is it that sometimes I don't say a word, but all my feelings can still be heard?
Why can’t I express what I feel? Why do I not know how to reveal? Why is it that I am feeling so high? Why am I asking all this, Why?
- Priyank Shah March 20 Until ForeverHey, This time, its not my work but I adore this one completely... They r just so awesome words... I dunno how some1 can express so...so... completely... Each word is full of emotions... Neways, rather than describing it, I'll show it to you, decide 4 urself.... Here it goes...
Until Forever
Until stars have lost their sparkle Until the sun refuses to shine Until the flowers fail to bloom You will always be forever mine.
Until lightning ceases to strike Until the snowflakes stop falling Until rainbows have no ending Your name I'll always be calling
Until eternal time stops ticking Until skies are no longer blue, Until my heart stops beating I'll always be in love with you
-Anonymous March 16 Ek se haiHey bhaavi,
You wanted me 2 write a shorter blog rite??? Well........here's a short blog, on ur ORDER ma'am, hehe.
This is one of my Hindi Poems... I apologize 2 ppl who dont undestand hindi, but I feel like posting this desperately... So, well, here it goes...
Ek se hai
Panchi nadiyan chand sitare ek se hai,
yaani saare ishq ke maare ek se hai...
Sagar hoon mein, jaau kis or, lehre lekar,
Mere liye to dono kinare ek se hai...
Ho chandan ya ho koi chita ki lakdi,
Doobte hue ko saare sahare ek se hai...
toote hue dil ke dilwale se pucchte kya ho,
Uske liye to patjhad bahare ek se hai...
Saare ghum ko aansu barabar mein deta hoon,
Mere liye to naye purane ek se hai...
Ginti karo to shayad tumhe pata chalega,
Mere aansu aur ye taare ek se hai...
Ghum to aakhir ghum hota hai, ghum ka kya hai,
Zakhm to aakhir mere tumhare ek se hai...
- Priyank "Benaam" Shah
P.S.: I hope it was not too long... N plzz dun ask me y benaam, I just adore this name. My Responsesjust visited the blog of Richa... http://spaces.msn.com/richa-world/
Found some awesome work there, n I responded to most of her shayaries in the form of shayaries....
I'm posting my responses, if u wanna kno whut were they 4, visit her blog...
Har kisi ko haale dil bataya nahi karte,
Apne pyar ke kisse sunaya nahi karte, Yeh toot gaya to bahut dard hoga, dost, Har kisi ko dil mein basaya nahi karte.... In khushiyon ko samet ke rakhna palko mein apni,
chhut ke haatho se kahi bikhar naa jaaye, In pal ko mutthi mein bandh karke bhi sambhalna, yeh to reth hai, kahi phisal naa jaaye, palko mein kaid kar lena sapne salone apne, aasnu ke saath yeh kahi nikal naa jaaye, waqt to badal deta hai duniya ke saare rishtey, waqt ke saath yeh rishta bhi badal naa jaaye... Apne aansuon ke beech chand bhi naraaz nazar aata hai,
Dil mein ghum ke andhere ho to suraj bhi doob jaata hai, Apni naraazgi ka dosh naa do is chand par zaalim, Ye to bas ek aaina hai, sirf aapka chehra hi dikhata hai... Yeh dosti sirf ek alfaaz nahi hai,
Yeh to sargam hai, sirf saaz nahi hai, yeh bayaan to kar sakti hai kayi ghazalen lekin, Afsos ke iske gale mein aawaz nahi hai... Chand par itna bharosa naa karo,
Chand ke ye jashn tika nahi karte, tumhe waade dekar jaayega woh roz milne ka, Par yeh chaand amavas ko dikha nahi karte... Har tooti hui cheez ko sapna na samajhna,
kabhi toota hua ek dil bhi hota hai, Har aate sakhs ko apna na samajhna, koi dost ke nakaab mein kaatil bhi hota hai... Tumko shayad lagta hai ke badal apni khushi dikha raha hai,
Yeh to hum hi jaante hai ke humare saath badal bhi aansu baha raha hai... Majboor rishtey nahi, majboor insaan hote hai,
Jo ise samajh nahi paaye, aise nadaan hote hai, Dil to tod dete hai pal bhar mein ye zaalim, Aur phir dil tootne ki baat se bhi anjaan hote hai... Hume khamosh dekhkar unhe lagta hai, ke hum din bhar bekhayal hote hai,
Koi unhe kaise samjhaaye, khamoshi mein kitne sawaal hote hai.... Is pal ko aise na koso, is pal ko dua do,
Is pal mein jo chingari jali hai, usko tum hawa do, Zindagi mein aise aur pal ki dua naa karo, Bas is pal mein hi zindagi ko sama do... Purani baatien to akhir purani hoti hai,
Unkahe zakhmo ki nishaani hoti hai, Tum laakh karlo dawa, ye zakhm nahi mitenge, Kyunki har zakhm se judi ek kahaani hoti hai... I know I m not GOD or a flower,
Nor I'm the moon, not even water, I cant even imagine to b a poet or sun, I'm sure I'm not teddy, nor m I demon, I cant be a queen, waiting for a king, Nor for you, I think I can sing, But I can do one thing for u, I can give, my worthless life for u... Hum kaha rona chahte hai, waqt hume rulataa hai,
Hum to gulab hi dekhte hai, ye hume kaante dikhata hai, Humne socha ki kabr mein to paayenge sukun kucch pal ka, Magar waha bhi roz humpar chadne, unka ek phool aata hai.... Tumhare hi kaaran ye baarish itni badnaam hai,
Koi bataaye tumhe ke uspar yeh ilzaam hai, Tumhe lagta hai ke woh dushman hai tumhari tanhayi ki, Magar woh tumhare mehboob ka pyar bhara paigam hai... Kucch na karne par to ab humne afsos karna chhod diya,
Humne to jo bhi kiya, usine humara dil tod diya, Humne duniya se saath maanga, jab lagne lagi tanhayi, Aur ye duniyawaalo ne humara naam bhi diljalo mein jod diya... waqt ne hume jeena sikhakar kaisa zulm kiya, hume is waqt ne sukoon se marne bhi nahi diya, kabr to hum ban hi chuke the apne dafn armaano ki, bas humari laash ko waqt ne jalne bhi nahi diya... March 13 Silent SoundThis is one of my very initial poems, but so true till date... Mayb thats only cuz I can relate to it, or then mayb it actually is precious... Neways, I'm no one 2 decide so, here it goes...
Silent Sound
I hear a silent murmur, And it makes me wonder, Is this my scars ad bruises calling me? Or is this some dream which I see? Is this some past which has recollected? Or maybe, its future, interpreted, It might be this night, wanting for dawn, Or winds in search of, mysteries unknown, Moving in my mind, might be the memories, Or I might have remembered some untrodden stories. It’s not even a friend, nor is it a foe, I don't know the sound, or maybe I know, It’s not even pain, harsh and soar, But it’s my heart, wanting for more…
-Priyank Shah |
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